Sunday, January 11, 2015
I'm freaking BACK !
SOOO, It's kimmy and I am finally back to posting idiotic things on my blog, the last time I've posted something here is when I was 15 and going through some crappy stuff, it has been 3 years since that and I think I've kinda change A LOT or as they say matured (a little). God ! things escalated sooo fast. So, I'm going to summarizes the events of my undoubtedly shitty life yet I'm grateful for it. After PMR 2012 I've survived it, and got 4A's, 2B's and a C. Didn't get that 7A but Ohhh well, things happen and I've moved pass that. On March 2013, my family and I transferred to a new town a little bit further than Kota Kinabalu that is Papar, my hometown. I got into a high school called SMK St Mary and the school is FABULOUS ! people are less judgemental and more understanding (no offense to my old schoolmates) I've found new friends and they are amazing, I've catch up with my studies and I was doing pretty well in my class considering how low I scored in the past. I've gotten more fluent in English and I've been using the mentioned language on a daily basis but I still need to work on it though. I've gotten more active on school events and I also got myself a boyfriend earlier in the year 2013 but it didn't went so well
mostly because of me because of my bitch like habits, and before you say something .... Yess, I admit to that, and I'm proud to finally be honest with myself that I've wounded a lot of people and I might even left a scar or two. I was reluctant to face that reality but I think I've finally faced it and throw that old habits of mine, all thanks to my friends and that significant someone. I guess you're wondering who that significant someone is right? Well the story goes that on the first day I went to St Mary, He was taken to the police station for explanation of some kind of misunderstanding and it was on his birthday. Not a good start for a love story huh ? hahaha, but the thing is, he's the last person I thought I might fall for, but it happened on 13th July 2013 and we're still going strong until now, I think this might be the longest relationship I've ever have. We do fight sometimes but that only seems to bring us closer to each other .. Enough of that, back to my summary of what I've been doing this past 3 years that doesn't seem to be a summary. On 2014, I've found my SOULSISTER! I love, love, LOVE her, she's totally my bestfriend, I call her Fifie, we are two different people that came from differant worlds, yet we connect and understand each other, she knows my secrets and the darker side of me that nobody knows of that I'll reveal in a moment. I also have other bestfriends that maybe I'm the only one who things they're my bestfriends but I'm not theirs so I don't want to mention their names except for my club members that I established myself, It's a club for OTAKUS !! Yes, I'm a manga and anime fanatic, like who doesn't love anime right? My club is growing by the second, I've 4 younger members and two of them is my cousin and niece and 5 other members that's the same age as me. Aside from the club, I survived through SPM !! Damn, I almost died of stress because I mainly do nothing earlier in that year and I didn't do any of my homeworks or notes or even go to extra classes, I'm beyond astonish that I didn't get expelled or at least suspended... ._. So after SPM, I've been doing nothing actually, I've finished high school and I feel like my life purpose is gone. But I kinda figured something about myself, like I mentioned before the bitch like habit, there's something I've been trying to avoid for as long as I can remember, there's always been something dark about me, about the really me, I've been struggling to see pass that part of me for such a long period of time but instead I could have just accepted it from the beginning, but maybe I was just blinded by my own fictions. Now, for the first time ever I'm going to say it all, I am not a loving person, I almost hate everything. I'm not that 'hey, I love everyone' kind of person that I made myself believe. I don't forgive people that easily, I believe in keeping a grudge towards people that I dislike. I don't believe in 'If you d good, good will come to you', I never did. I love the black, maybe more than that. I never wanted to be a Doctor, or a scientist or anything practical, I wanted to be an artist, I've been doing oil paintings, sketches, watercolour and even poetry. But I think I'm going to take more time to figure out what I actually want. For now, that is all I wanted to tell, and I'll also be changing the whole entire theme of my blog and delete some pictures and posts, in other words, I'll be deleting all the fake things that I've posted, from now on, I'll be as honest as I can.
And before I forget, I go by Kimmy or Kim now, not Xiao Kimmy, not Mimmy or Mie (except for my friends though), and especially not Ruby.
Untill next time my beautifuls~~